I believe in Love - Barlowgirl

Oh wow! Well I know that I am crazy behind on blogging as well as everything else. So if you are expecting some photos to be posted I am working my behind off and soon I promise....BUT I had to post this...

Every once and a while I hear a song. A song that stops me in my tracks...and yes makes me bawl. Infact it is not rare for people to look at my very concerned while im driving and so I simply smile and drive on. And this is one of those songs. Air 1 is the best thing for me. A few years ago when I recommitted myself to the Lord my biggest strugle was music. I love to shake it and I just cant shake it to southern gospel (not slamming it I too love a great hymn....but you cant shake it). So anywho what was a music lovin girl suppose to do when she changes her life and has a music collection that would make a sailor blush...(maybe thats a little dramatic)! Well you get the drift! So one day as I'm driving in a silent car I began to pray about this. I was trying to change all aspects of my life but the gospel stations were not cutting it (PRE-Ipod) and I was going insane in all the silence and boy bands and top 40 were not my thing! God answered I promise you! My car battery died and I had to reset all the presets on my radio. When I hit scan the 1st station that popped up was air 1. The song was These Thousand Hills by Third Day. And I was hooked. Before I new it there were all these songs that I Had never heard that were fabulous and ministered to me while I shook my booty! My savior had come thourgh again.

Anyway thats what I expect now. I expect to here a song and be ministered to. I expect when I am having a bad day, week, month, year, decade... that God will use music to soothe my soul. Its how it has been from the beginning for me. I was 8 the first time I remember my mom helping me reherse to sing at church and I learned way before that all the words to Vistal Goodman and Dotti Rambo songs. And i thank God that even now, when my momma is not here for me to sing with, he sends me comfort through the radio.

This song (see below) speaks to me because I do believe. I believe that even when I feel desperatly alone he is there holding me. That when my day seems dark the son still shines. I believe that when people are gone they are not forgotten. I am Thankful for all that my life is. I am thankful even though I have endured much pain there had been so much more JOY. I am thankful that even if I feel like I fail at many things God has blessed me with love, family, cheer, & a job that is amazing (and one day I might actually get the hang of it) .

I have been consumed by so much of myself that being thankful was impossible. And then I realized just what my father has done for me and it was hard to wallow in self pity anymore. Yes my heart has been crushed but my God had been there. He has never forsaken me. And being tried I want to be found true. So that I am burned and purified in grace and righteousness. I believe I am loved by my God and really what else matters?

And just because this is a photoblog a picture of me and one of the people I am the most thankful for. My sister! She is an amazing person and I thank God I have her. She may be only 11 and 7/8 but she is a huge support to me. I love you Booger and I thank God he made us sisters!

To Listen go HERE

Barlowgirl
I Believe In Love

How long will my prayers seem unanswered?
Is there still faith in me to reach the end?
I'm feeling doubt I'm losing faith
But giving up would cost me everything
So I'll stand in the pain and silence
And I'll speak to the dark night

I believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I believe in love even when I don't feel it
And I believe in God even when He is silent
And I, I believe

Though I can't see my stories ending
That doesn't mean the dark night has no end
It's only here that I find faith
And learn to trust the one who writes my days
So I'll stand in the pain and silence

And I'll speak to the dark night

I believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I believe in love even when I don't feel it
And I believe in God even when He is silent
And I, I believe
No dark can consume Light
No death greater than this life
We are not forgotten
Hope is found when we say
Even when He is silent

I believe in the sun even when it's not shining
I believe in love even when I don't feel it
And I believe in God even when He is silent
And I, I believe.